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2012-01-14T01:12:00.000+08:00

Hi .

(SCREAM)

whyamisoeffinglazytohitthespacebarbutton?!

Right, yeah these days i'm getting lazy and lazier! God, please make me stay away from this laptop for while and oh, shut down the internet as well. Sigh...

I'm desperately wanna get out from this house and exercise! but this high tech currently dragging me and forcing me to keep sitting like a pig.

sounds like a tech whore? GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

just saying, i've no proper words this time. :\

TOO BORED TO DO ANYTHING!!

FINAL PROJECT! done :B

2012-01-07T12:47:00.005+08:00

Yay! All the stress and hardwork *kinda*, No sleep, lot of eating,siting,staring anything that you can mention are paid off! I've done my major project presentation. I, honestly doesn't like what when it turns out to be but im happy though. :) After the presentation end, i sleep like 2 days non-stop. Phew~ then, i continue playing games with aaron ;D hahaha!!

Here's my final:

SCENES (STORYBOOK)

PORTRAITS (Main Character)

la la la

2011-12-30T03:01:00.003+08:00

I only have 4 days left to complete my projects! I'm such a lazy bum you know... god! this is tiring...
and oh, i also tired in life too. Like i was born to this world just to be accused, handling all the complicated stuffs. Seriously. . .
I know this ain't a good stuff to be talked but sometimes I wished to die soon. Yes, I'm serious...
God told us to accept and bear but I can't do that... i know its a simple task but its quite challenging.

?

2011-12-27T02:59:00.001+08:00

*I don't know what exactly does that mean*

sigh . . .

Christmas 2011 / what did i do? :O

2011-12-25T01:04:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !

and most importantly. . .

Happy Birthday, Jesus Christ !!

i wished everyone had their wonderful day on Christmas. No matter busy you are, you should at 'least'

take a break for a day. It's Christmas! Why in the world do you want to work on public holiday? wait, is it public holiday or what, hm... ah!

But you need to refrain away from your work and celebrate the born day of Jesus Christ! :)

p/s: Don't over celebrate it or you might forgotten about your work. Haha :P

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Ah, anyways . . .

as my age aging (Meh...i just exaggerate about it) i feel like i have this huge responsible to do now. I wanna become a kid like the old days. Sigh...

Anyways people what did you do on christmas eve? XD do you had fun? 'well, i'm kinda 'enjoying' it but actually i'm not'. Boo~? Because, all i remember is that i'm doing my final project and the presentation is a week ahead of me. I am so effing nervous like hell. I did pretending talking in bathroom (some sort i have this amazing ideas) LMAO! Oh god, ohhhhh god!!!!!!!

*finger crossed*

Um, what else... oh oh! haha... I had fun practicing my vocal today. Oh, i missed how i could hit the notes and sang in opera but somehow i couldn't do it anymore because i ain't fit. LOL LOL! *true fact* But i still 'managed' to hit few notes. Yay~~ :D But still, i'm more to normal instead of opera though.... T^T how I missed the old days where i sang and editing my videos after that post on youtube. :P Can't believe i got 3k/5k views.. wow... *i know its little but for me its a lot!* haha...

You know, once i'm done with my final project on my last semester in college, i am going to post more more videos of me singing again. Perhaps i have improved? :)))) STAYYYYY TUUNNNEEEDDD!!! <3 <3

Soooooo, that's alll then! SEEE YAAA.... byebyeeeeee! <3

~~*i'm so in a good mood and rather diligent today to write this thing... maa!*~~ :P

heck this is stupid!

2011-12-21T19:53:00.001+08:00

i understand that everyone changed but if lazy to reply back when i'm asking, you know what... don't talk/ask anything from me. Seriously... =_= and that is why i always been left alone in the middle of the conversation. Seeshh....

Go HAVE FUN WITH YOUR LIVES AND DON'T BOTHER TO TALK TO ME. =_= I prefer being alone rather than being neglected. It's just takes minutes to reply. WTF?! Next time, I won't bother to reply ALL of your messages. What are friends for? Is it to neglect a friend behind when a friend asking a question? =_=
If i'm no longer in your 'friend' list, throw me then.

Whatever la... don't care.

I'M IN DEPRESSION! warning

2011-12-07T04:34:00.001+08:00

I've been in depression for almost 2 weeks and my bedtime isn't in the right time already, everything is all upside down. I'm like a living bat, sleep at day then woke up at night. First, I'm panic about my final project; Second, i'm depress about my relationship; Third, I'm lonely because I've been stuck in this house for several months without proper outings; Fourth, I'm worried that I gained weight [LOL] and last but not least my major project. WILL I BE ABLE TO DONE EVERYTHING WITHIN A WEEK?!

Amen. . .

*SCREAM*

Now how I felt being not be able to going out for months and it kept me being sick all the time. There's one time I almost faint because of the gastric I had. It's uber painful and I couldn't stand up... also my WHOLE BODY is in pain especially my neck, my back, my right arm and my right fingers (all that has something to do with me drawing)

Anyways, the reason that i in depression is because I lack of communication. I feel like i'm in a dark corner jail, alone... (but to what i imagine is quite creepy and eerie, lain daripada lain bah). Being in house without someone to talk with definitely makes me going crazy. There's one time I laugh with myself and pretending that every each one of my friend was in front of me and I act that I was talking to them. (Awkward~)

Okay so, um...still I'm in depression; it is because of the ~~no.2~~ reason. So...yeah, hope I could get over it and put my head up to the game... ><

meh, my crap

2011-11-12T22:43:00.001+08:00

As far as I can bear, I already gave up and lost my temper on the halfway. Little did I know, it's really getting my nerves on and I cannot take it anymore. All the everything that ever happened to me are not really I would say "blessed" but instead of I got "disparagement". Well yeah, some would thought its a joke but for me it really needle in heart and so~ before say anything . . .

YOU KNOW WHAT?

NEVERMIND AND I'M BORED RIGHT NOW,

SO I WRITE CRAP.

HAPPY NOVEMBER EVERYONE.

teehee...

~~i'm soft like a cotton~~

No proper title.

2011-11-05T23:23:00.000+08:00

Hey!

It's November and I don't realize its november already! God, i'm freaking out right now.

You know, I'm just wondering if I'm ready for this my final semester right now because I had this thought to extend a another semester. Is it the right thing to do? I guess my parents would be agreed with me. I've been really, i mean really gotten distracted by games; also with my desk. My desk wasn't that so 'alive' & 'fresh' and i lost my mood to do my final project. Gosh, I am super lazy now! GIVE ME MOTIVATION PLEASE!! D:

:|

2011-11-03T04:06:00.001+08:00

Sigh, I just can't believe these two are filling their divorces... (*expressionless face*);

Good god! What are you both thinking? Heh...anyways not my problem but its just that, i'm a fan of Kardashian's Reality Show and wow, i can't believe this could be happening. I guess Khloe is right, maybe.

Kim look's so amazing in that wedding dress and few weeks later or more, their filling their divorces?

Sad but hey, kim is single again so I hope whoever kim finds her love, i wished they would last long like Kim with his ex's, Reggie or whatever . . .

God bless you kimmie :)

The Poet's heart

2011-11-01T03:41:00.002+08:00

No uttered words the poet speaks,
No skies of golden hue,
No tales of unrequited love,
They were lost when I lost you.

No words to caress his lover's heart,
And gone the dreams he swore they'd live,
But alone within the poet dwells,
No uttered words... none left to give.

No music swells within his soul,
Just silence surrounds his heart,
And the solitude engulfs his world,
When the poet and love depart.

And lost the beauty he once could see,
And the glory he saw each day,
Now the poet pens his last farewell,
No more love can he convey.

But what's the poet's soul to do?
To release the love he feels,
For he'll surely die and wither,
If that love he now conceals.

He must hide the hurt and heartache,
Just smile to friends and say,
I'm fine... love doesn't matters,
And deceive them all that way.

For a different face he'll show them,
To barricade his pain,
To hide his shattered spirit,
From the love he ne'er attained.

But the pain within shall kill him,
Not soon but through the years,
For the poet knows his anguish,
When alone he sheds her tears.

And at night when dreams come calling,
With her voice, her smile... her eyes,
A single tear upon his cheek,
Hides the pain his heart belies.

For he loved her soul completely,
Was consumed by beauty's bliss,
Had shared her inner thoughts,
But never shared her kiss.

And when death comes to the poet,
And to heaven his soul ascends,
He'll smile before her beauty,
For eternity never ends.

So will the poet regret the life,
Which stole away the years,
No he'll simply recall the love,
He felt in all her tears.

And when his love has joined him,
And they meet in heaven's bliss,
Their regrets will quickly perish,
As they kiss their first sweet kiss.

And the words will quickly flow again,
From my thoughts, to hand... to book,
I'll not write of God or Heaven,
When upon your face I look.

So the poet's again a poet,
For the words were always there,
I just didn't see much beauty,
When your love I couldn't share.

So their souls will find the love at last,
That in life they could not seek,
And the poet soon finds the words in you...
The words... he could not speak.

silence

2011-10-20T03:44:00.002+08:00

I wonder if someone have the same feeling like I do?

I wonder if its worthy to trust that someone?

Like I said, do someone have the same feeling like I do? Most likely cared more of a person's feeling instead of itself . . .

Is it worthy to trust a person that you really cared if you have the doubt that person is only using you?

A.L.

2011-10-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

Oh goodie, do my blog is still alive? Haha . . . oh my god. . . my blog is dying.
Oh well . . .

I have to share something in here;
So here it is . . .

There's someone proclaimed that i'm her best friend (seems i'm the only ONE); but she also suddenly ended the relationship over. Why? Ha! Just because I ignored her messages, just because of that she's acting being childish and dramatic. Ugh... dude, seriously?! Just because she's a year old from me, senior from my ex-primary school, doesn't mean I have to keep serving all her meals for 24/7. Like hello? I ain't your boyfriend nor ur mother or something. How could you call that someone is your best friend just by saying that you know that someone from your ex-primary school? Weird much??
She kept saying about this guy that keeps fooling her around, likes her, asking her to go out with him . . . ugh! but ended giving her stress and confusion. Your 21?! Hello, you can think by yourself . . . i have nothing to say more to it but you keep forcing me giving answer for it at YM and then she went offline. Stupid. =_=

Ugh, i lazy to write more so that's all. So many dramas and she over exaggerated about it.

O' dear my child . . .

2011-10-11T02:45:00.002+08:00

Run, Run . . .
O' dear my child,
say thee wouldn't look back,
please O' dear my child,
listen to me . . .

O' dear my child,
When there is a tale to be told,
Let be thee self become it narrator,
be an unorthodox as thee could be,
and listen on every libretto from the mouth itself . . .

Say, O' dear my child . . .
Have you seen the duos or commonly known as the "twosome" around here?
"No, sir, I hadn't see any of it or perhaps I never seen one"
Well, O' dear my child . . .
You look so confident while answering that kind of question;
"I beg your pardon sir, is a question is meant to be answered?"
Smart one kiddo, and yes it is meant to be answered but is the answer came from your thoughts or your hearts?
"Both sir"

the nightmare

2011-10-10T23:27:00.000+08:00

"There's a father and a daughter in a house. The daughter create a game to play with her dad and will be given a reward if her dad wins the game. After the whole game was ended, her dad ended by winning the whole game, then the daughter gave a precious lovable thing to her father for him to keep as a memories. Day after that, the daughter needs attention from his father but unfortunately the father doesn't talked to her unless her herself have to start the conversation first"

. . . it is your own treat for your own satisfaction . . .

I had the worst diarrhea today . . .
I didn't know that I drank the waste of dish cleaner in a glass... yes, ew. Because of that I almost fainted and barely could put my head up. @_@ I suppose to clean the glass first before I poured the water from the kettle into it. Sigh. . .
GAH! also I'm in the middle of doing my final project in college. Woo, it's crazy, stressful and annoying! D:

And well that's it! ):< I have no mood to continue this post because my stomach hurts again. :|

around the world..

2011-10-02T23:34:00.002+08:00

i think i had enough with this deleting post right after been posted, i mean like really? there's no point of posting if you deleting after you posted in someone wall. I don't mind if you deleting post ONLY IF you had spelling error and then repost it. But deleting it because over of "someone" reads it, that is so childish and unreasonable. Ugh, whatever but its really getting my nerves on. My advice here is to ignore the "someone" and bear with it. I heard is ignorance is bliss? whatever, its all up to you..

2011-09-24T17:37:00.004+08:00

Oh hey everyone!

Ah! Finally I have a little bit of time to blog (LOL) . . .
anyways here it is . . . so, right now i'm in the middle of my major project and i still haven't think of any titles yet for my major but i have already thought of the insides what i'm going to do but its just that, the title, which is i'm confused till now. UGH, at first i did thought of making an artbook BUT my lecturer still asking what title, and i have no idea after that i thought of games, then my lecturer asked me what kind of games is it and i was like heck? seriously? then i know it has to be super duper detail then you can move onto the next part. Hurrr~ what a pain. . . and lastly i finally blurted my title for my major which is children illustration (OKAY, that one i KNOW how to do..) it wasn't the 'final decision' for my title but i still have few more. Should I do sports? or portraits? or caricatures? or. . . local storybooks (cerita rakyat) or last but not least children illustration...

then, my lecturer asked me to do few real life portraits to be approve then i can continue onto the next one.. heh~
oh well... gonna work work work! :)

Danger post

2011-09-19T02:47:00.001+08:00

Hello again~

Um, hi?

Yeah hi.. aha. Anyways... I've just finished downloading few art-books from internet. Actually its for my inspiration, just in case i kinda lose focus at college or somewhere i just look over the art-books that i downloaded and hopefully my mind could develop / imagine from the pictures that i see. Oh BTW, there's one book that I downloaded, the title is "Brute Love". It's very very explicit contents and not suitable for kids nor teenagers! :O From the title you can sense the images that popped out from your brain... "Brute Love" art-book is actually where all women were sexually brutalized / tortured by their owner or whoever it was; Enslaved, in short. I tell you, the art was UH-MA-ZING but the theme is quite creepy. I wouldn't suggest people to see this book because this art-book probably could make people traumatized, trust me in this one! I guaranteed you cannot sleep right after seeing it. It's too... O_O eye popping. I don't find seeing this art-book could bring any happiness to other people but depression and scared. Well as for me I only observing their technique in drawing and the human anatomy, as well as the shadings, perspectives and movements. Perhaps I could let you see one or two images from that art-book.

I warn you

it's dangerous to see 'em

I said it again, i only OBSERVING THE TECHNIQUES AND ALL, I myself did not really enjoying looking all of these pictures. Looking all of it, it saddened me and but for the sake for improving my skills, I have to look everything, in details of course.

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Kay, enough with the art-book thing...

now let's talk about me...

You know,

my physical condition are becoming worst each day. My feet (esp. right) couldn't wear any shoes anymore. Soon, my feet will have a hole! :O The dead skins (calluses) is starting to peel and its huge! >_<

When it's swollen (light purple color), it doesn't hurt in one area but the WHOLE LEG! My thighs hurt the most.. :| My right feet actually doesn't step perfectly on ground, my heels are up (I have short tendons behind of my feet)...

SIGH, what am I gonna do? :\

Looks like I have to wear flip flops the rest of my life..

and just for your information, my feet stop growing..

so i have a feet that looks like 6 - 8 year old kid..

LOL

sad sad

2011-09-15T13:04:00.001+08:00

i can't believe her dad just called us "useless friends" whereas i've been friends with her since we're 8 years old. I can't accept the fact that we're an 'useless'. So, whole this years, her dad been faking up by liking all of us? WOW, that's hurt.
I just don't understand why now? She's been living for 20years now and then now you make your move to start controlling everything? We're not influencing her to all the negatives attitude, but why? She's grown up now... =_=

I just hope there's something behind all of these matter...
amen! :<

i don't and hate it.

2011-09-12T11:24:00.000+08:00

Its monday~ monday~ monday!! :))

Oh yeah, i wanna tell you all something. Yesterday afternoon, something or someone just hit my nerves on. Well literally..
I thought she's a good person but actually she's the annoying ones. She asked me to leveling with her but I'm busy doing quest but then once i'm done doing my quests, i followed her where she asked me to but then when i go to her channel, she changed... then i followed her again, she changing her channels again... what the heck? Every time I went to her channels, she keep changing it. That was so annoying... seriously, if you really want me to go leveling with you then let me go to your channel then. She kinda pissed with me just because I didn't replied her message. =_= My gosh, i did told her I WAS AFK'ING... because i'm on the ship for 4mins? When she was AFK, i didn't bothered her because she's away... duh... =_=
Then i got bored, i went offline. Why bother playing with her if she doesn't want me to go her channel. Baka! I was hoping nii-chan would online but still he didn't. Sigh...
After that, she went to MSN and asked me to online but meh, i don't wanna to... i'm going to start doing my project MUCH MUCH BETTER. zzz~

Do kashira...?

2011-09-12T01:23:00.001+08:00

GAH! finally its the registration day! :O
Going for registrations looks fine but actually no! its our last semester so, i will try my best to have fun with it and go with the flow... *insert a big sigh here.jpg*

So what did i do during the 2 weeks break?
- I.played.games.for.24/7.

Yes, that's true. Bahaha! :B Literally... *__________________________*
I don't just simply playing games but at the same time, i'm thinking and figuring out what kind of product that i'm going to produce. Even during feces i couldn't stop thinking. Hehe... >___________<'' LOL.

I have my bulb on top of my head and bam! i hope its dream come true. Amen! I know what to do .. *evil smirks*

Ja! that's all from me today... :3

It's okay. . .

2011-09-01T15:31:00.004+08:00

Looks like September has finally come, ne? Sigh.. thinking of September makes me really uncomfortable. There's something not ease in me, I feel so nervous and worried even now! I wonder what it is...

I guess I think too much till I myself couldn't concentrate. I easily get influenced on something and then its end just like that. So, I have to bear one more semester before I got my total freedom but nah, even I wanted to but I've been restricted to stay in home though. What a life...

So, what exactly on my mind right now?

Many, i could say.

"Not long time ago, I had these old and new pretty stones that I collected but somehow the new pretty stones seems missing one by one from my desk drawer. I don't know where the new stones gone to. Ah! Perhaps my brother has secretly taken it. LOL! The only remains that in my drawer is the old stones. You know, I really had fun playing with the new stones. I'm sad now because they all gone; hopefully I could find them back. :( Since I rarely playing with the old stones but they still in my desk drawer."

my mind were somewhere beyond from here;

2011-08-27T23:48:00.000+08:00

As I continue my todays post...
um, i just wanna brag that my home internet has no internet access for almost 24hr. :| Geez, that sucks. I couldn't online since yesterday till 5pm or something. Sigh... but luckily I have The Sims 3 that my friend just installed it for me. muh2.. :3
I played it till I didn't realize it was 5AM already! O_O I was like... wtf man? 5AM? :| I thought it was around 2am or 3am like that... god, i totally have forgotten the world. HAHA! ngee... :B

friday the last.

2011-08-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

Gaaaaaahhh! Holiday sometimes could be so boring and could be so fun! But yesterday, I wasn't having fun at all well a little bit but not all. Sigh, I wished suzy was here then I could talk to her, at least. I missed her :( Since everybody so busy, i have nothing to do except burning my assignments into a CD then . . . after done passing up my 3D assignment, I help my other friends passing their 3D assignments CD to the lecturer. Hehe. . . and that time too i'm so effing hungry (as well as the others). I didn't take my breakfast before i leave home to college. =_=; heh~

Since I couldn't wait that long, at the end I ended going home early. I went to CityMall with my mum because I pleaded her to go there just to buy a few supplies of foods.

LOL

At that evening too, i ended eating too much till I can't eat any more and went straight to sleep.

Yes, after I done eating my so called early dinner i went to sleep. HAHA!

Yea lo, no wonder me makin "bulat".

stress

2011-08-17T19:18:00.000+08:00

I just don't know what i'm going to do right now. Everything has meddled up with my preparation for Major Project.
Yesterday i've been..sorta like accosted by my lecturer, for late doing my corporate design assignment. Well, i am deserved for that... XD

Anyways, also my lecturer discussed about me choosing Illustration as my major. He said that my level hasn't reach that particular level to take illustration. Yeah, i know because I'm drawing too much of cartoon and lost interested in realistic art which i loved to do since i'm in high school. Sigh...but its okay, i'm going to work my butt off to get that mood where i love traditional art. Amen and Yes! I can do it! hmph..! >:3

the 'unknown' title?

2011-08-06T21:45:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone. =)

So, it's august already? It's unrealizable, don't you think? Each month passes by, i'm getting nervous. Sigh, i'm still couldn't decided what should I do for my major project. I guess the word of 'presentation' scared me off... -_-; i'm pathetic, thats why. I'm afraid.

August also is a Ramadan Month for muslims. It's a fasting month. I tried to follow their routine by fasting for a month, guess I couldn't do it. :\ LOL! But i'll try my best to follow them. Force Force! :)

dame desu.

2011-07-31T22:13:00.000+08:00

Today, something did happen to me. *Cursing* ... hurr~~ hurr~~ ~~~(=_=)~~~

Ah! Anyways, ^w^ teehee.... i'm watching Kimi Ni Todoke Season 2... hurr~~ (-w-) ano... i kinda felt annoyed at first because there's someone is trying to interrupt their relationship between Sawako and Kazehaya... UGH...screw you miura... hmph!! HMPH!!! Ne sawako, gambaru yo! kyaaa....kyaa!! they're soooooo sweet.... aww....ngawww....

hurrr~~ this temptation is trying to take over my mind... hurr.... actually, i wanna do a fanarts of Kimi Ni Todoke.. demo sa... ano... atashi wa dame desu!! T_T hurr.... shigoto dayo...shiiiiiggooooootttoooo.... T^T

how are you?

2011-07-31T02:25:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! Genki da ne? Teehee...
Wew it's morning now.. 2.23am.. :3 sigh, i don't know what should i do now..maybe i should go to sleep, i guess? So maybe tomorrow i will write a proper post then... hehe... now its just a quick update post... :D

ja, byebye... :D

i preferably called it, 'fun memories'

2011-07-30T02:48:00.000+08:00

Ah! It feels so good since i've been updating my blog. I guess there's no recent news about me ne? Haha, my best friend just said that i'm too loving of my life right now till the habits of my eating increasing like crazy, all i do is eat and eat and eat... haha, shoganai yo (it can't be helped) ... hmph..

anyways, when my friends and I was stopping by at RM4.99 shop, my friend, carmen just scared behind of me. LOL! sot d girl.. haha... not just me she scaring to, she scare efa, lona and others... haahha... well yes indeed i did have a heart attack for while...also efa playing the kids toy which is chicken..hahaha... my fav toy i can say... i don't know why would i attract such a toy.. perhaps because of the sound? hahahahahaha...

um... what else.. hurm... well thats all! yosh, off to go sleep then...

ja, matta ashita ne? bye bye minna! :D

i'm just worried, please make my mind ASAP

2011-07-21T22:13:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone..

sigh, looks like i'm on hiatus again. My day just same as usual but the pressure is getting on and on and on.

Ah, yesterday my boyfriend and I talk about something about manager and worker and what a coincidence! because today during the english business classes, the topic that we learn is also about something to do with manager and worker... haha! My my...what a funny day.

next is um.. ah yes, i'm doing a storyboard for 2D animation. Hm, the story line are easy to understand but the hardest is that we're gonna to animate each frames that from our storyboard. God i'm sucks in animating stuff. I love animating stuff but ...it'll take time to learn. Just like a phrase say "There's so much to do, so little time" .. :( My final project is around the corner and i'm still couldn't make my mind to choose a theme for my major. At first, i wanna choose Corporate Design, then i changed my mind thinking wanna take Illustration and after that i changed my mind to follow my friend, 2D and 3D Animation. I'm just worried about the presentations and how it would turns out to be later on... and that's why i'm just bear everything and control the situation around here. AMEN.

depression attack!

2011-07-18T15:29:00.000+08:00

Today isn't a wonderful day for me. Sigh, first i've ruined his plan to go watch movies with me, with my best friend and his best friend as well. I canceled for going out with them at the last minute like around 9.30am. Damn but what can I do, there's bundled of works and of course discussion meeting :'( I'm stressed and depressed on my assignment 3D animation, it's too hard to make the animation (as in the anatomy) I'm thinking too much till my mood turns sour and no mood to talk with anyone. I'm a failure, impatient and stupid. =_= gosh, this just an assignment, how about my major next semester? Much worse i could see... please god, let me bear all of these burden and roughness that i had. Amen!

King Of Thieves

2011-07-13T17:14:00.001+08:00

Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh
Ah-ah

Comin' home
The lock's broken
And the doors wide open
It's all gone, it's all gone now

I look around
It's just white walls
Listen now to echoes
It's all gone, it's all gone now

Pre-Chorus:
Ever since you broke into me
Ever since you left with the key
I can't open up for anyone any more, any more

Chorus:
You took the sun, the moon and the stars
Now I'm walkin' all alone in the dark
You stole my heart, you stole my heart
Give it back to me

All the love that we made here is gone
I'm living in an empty house of cards
You stole my heart, you stole my heart
Give it back to me

King of thie-e-eves
King of thie-e-eves
You're the king of thie-e-eves
The king of, the king of

Verse 2:
Inside I'm hollow
'Cause you carved my heart out
It's all gone, it's all gone now

Whoa-oh

'Cause you delt a cold hand
I'm stripped to nothing
Take it all, take it all yeah-yeah
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/c/christina_grimmie/king_of_thieves.html ]
Pre-Chorus:
Ever since you broke into me
Ever since you left with the key
I can't open up for anyone any more, any more

Chorus:
You took the sun, the moon and the stars
Now I'm walkin' all alone in the dark
You stole my heart, you stole my heart
Give it back to me

All the love that we made here is gone
I'm living in an empty house of cards
You stole my heart, you stole my heart
Give it back to me

King of thie-e-eves
King of thie-e-eves
You're the king of thie-e-eves
The king of, the king of

Bridge:
I'll play the victim
'Cause you planned it out
Like cops and robbers
Just surrender now

Chorus:
You took the sun, the moon and the stars
Now I'm walkin' all alone in the dark
You stole my heart, you stole my heart
Give it back to me

All the love that we made here is gone
I'm living in an empty house of cards
You stole my heart, you stole my heart
Give it back to me

King of thie-e-eves
King of thie-e-eves
You're the king of thie-e-eves
The king of, the king of

Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh
Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh
Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh

the world of stupidity.

2011-07-11T19:23:00.000+08:00

Yeah everything has changed...every since that happened. It's saddened me when a person you knew for a very long time ignoring you just because of a someone. Sigh... what a life. It seems i'm a vicious disease that should stayed away from. I'm just helping but no it's upside down to that person.

haha..ha

2011-07-09T02:56:00.000+08:00

Woah... i've finally done with my essential business communication skills presentation...
i think i've just ruined the presentation by talking in malay language. OH LANGUAGE! I pretty did much worst instead great..sigh.. well, at least everyone was laughing though. :| oh you know what part is the most annoying? IS WHEN I'M IN FRONT OF EVERYONE! shit... at first it isn't as nervous as when i'm infront of everyone else. Oh crap..im shaking like crap. UGH ... WHAIII do i nervous?! =_= pfft eh...

One done, 2 more to go...
i have to do logos and storyboard... wee~~ i missed storyboard! aw... huhu, i really do missed rion's comment. UGH... everytime i think about it.. i'm always sad because he's no longer in our sight anymore... T_T sigh...

Oh gosh my brain... which topic should i do for my major... 2D Animation or Illustration? OHHH MY JESUS... please help me.. :((

uprightness

2011-07-06T01:58:00.000+08:00

i. merely. taciturn. about. that.

zip it or you're dead

Even if you leave me;

2011-07-04T14:58:00.002+08:00

mianhae niga nareul tteonado
niga nareul tteonado neol jikyeo bol su itdamyeon
nan haengbokhae nan haengbokhae geugeollo dwae
dareun pume angyeodo nal gieokhago itdamyeon
nan haengbokhae nan haengbokhae geugeollo dwae

eodiseodeun apeuji malgo sal ppaendago bap gurmji malgo
geu saram apeseo deo deo useo jwoya hae yeppeuge

hoksi naega geuriul ttaen i norael deureo
geu sarami apeuge hal ttaen i norael deullyeojwo (sirheo sirheo)
jakku naega bogopeul ttaen i norael bulleo
neol wihae junbihan nae majimak seonmureul (annyeong annyeong)

geu sarami gakkeumeun nareul mureo bondamyeon
moreunda hae beoryeotda hae geuraedo dwae
hoksirado naega mot chama bamsae neoui jeonhwal ullimyeon
geu saram gyeoteuro ga jikyeo dalla hae konw wo

hoksi naega geuriul ttaen i norael deureo
geu sarami apeuge hal ttaen i norael deullyeojwo (sirheo sirheo)
jakku naega bogopeul ttaen i norael bulleo
neol wihae junbihan nae majimak seonmureul (annyeong annyeong)

dora bojima nagachi bulhaenghan nom
gieokhal pillyo eobseo heunjeokdo eobseul mom
eochapi hae jun geotdo eobseo kkalkkeumhage doraseo
geuriumdo sachiingeol wanjeonhi nal jiwo haengbokhage sara
jwo jebal geureoke neoreul wihae sara
na gateun geon ije ijeo haengbokhage sara haengbokhage sara

a letter of repent

2011-07-04T08:06:00.002+08:00

I don't know whether if its true or whatever but the way you over 'treating' kinda pissed me off. It seems you forgetting about us. She sense it first and then followed by me. Now I realized that, just because you have to take care of the 'heart' you need to be like 24/7 with it. Well, i'm not jealous nor loving it but I just want that when I write something, you reply it. That's all, just like you replying the others. Ahh, you know what... nevermind. I'm tired to think about this anymore. Just do whatever you like.. :B

Miaw...... purrr~~ <(*o*)>

eat!! :D

2011-07-02T09:54:00.000+08:00

Yo people! Sorry for the late update. I supposed to be updating something when comes to 1st day of the month but unfortunately i missed it. Very busy with projects and assignments..sigh.

You see yesterday i'm very very hungry! I ate thrice when im at college. 1st for the breakfast, 2nd is for brunch and third as for dinner. Hahaha... i supposed to be straight eating like non stop.. but these too made my money burns so fast.. XD hahahaha!

a letter to recognize.

2011-06-29T22:24:00.002+08:00

First of all,

i would like to apologize for nosing about your matter. Well, it is not wise or great way for nosing other else personal matter BUT all those kind of stuffs is amusing me. Yes, i'm evil for saying that. Okay sorry again. I just hope that you could solve this kind of matter by your own. I believe that you trusted more to males rather to us which we've been friends so such a long time. We cared, as best friends we cared each other but it seems you changed so much compared to us. I'm sad of your behavior, but i really do hope that you could be yourself again and really please don't play a man's feeling or you'll get karma. Please don't take this in negative way. There's a phrase called "we learnt from our mistakes". Don't ask me a question that you supposed to be answering it. I, love my man dearly which is genuine and i'm not going to lie. As for you, you have to learn to understand him even though you somehow has a 'relation'. His love towards you seems so genuine like you will never get from 'other' man.

What is he to you? Do you really care about him or just fooling around like 8th grade? Sigh...

betake oneself.

2011-06-28T14:49:00.001+08:00

hello loves! :)
It's been a while since I last blogged in here.
How's life?

My life wasn't that great anyway, its still the same like before. Busy, busy and busy all the way. Sigh, i'm getting super nervous each day passed by. T.T sigh...

Things happen this lately. I've been forcing myself to control my emotions ever since he passed away. Even though we're still talking about him but i still can't accepting that he's gone. We also keep imitating his trademark in college, saying those trademarks like he always did before makes he's still alive in our heart. My friends always heard his voice especially at night or something in solid way example the guitar's strings disconnected. Each of us getting a slightly signal or appearances from him. I, got a glance of his side face with his "bieber's hair" from my friend, Azley. I almost cried when i get chance to see him even though it's just a glance. It happened at studio. My friend, stenley get thrice of his appearances. Twice at home and once in studio. He said that he saw him running and smiling while entering the studio room and after that disappeared after passing the door infront of the main entrance. My friend efa also happened to heard her name been called by him. It was the 6th day since he passed away. So, efa went to bed that night and pray too. After she said "amen" then she heard that her name been called by him. :'(

Just now my bestie text me that she's going to a course in KL, she really wants to meet me today but unfortunately i can't and i don't have class today so nobody could send me. :'( And also she only could see me the end of the year. That's sadden me. :'( I missed her so badly. Sigh... i wish you best of luck in KL, darling. :))

amen.

eargasm

2011-06-22T22:20:00.002+08:00

amen.

2011-06-21T20:01:00.000+08:00

Yo!

Today, I read my friend's bible. It's written in Indonesian but i could understand it very well and clear.

Bible Verses: 11
Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong.
1 Corinthians 16:13

After reading for for 30mins, I feel more calm and safe. I don't know why I said I feel safe...maybe because I have my precious guardian. :) I shall forgotten the past and move on for the future because future awaits me. I only need to work hard. You know, girls instinct are always right. La la la la la...

Amen. God bless me! :)

Oh by the way,
i also currently doing my final project sketches. By all the supports that i get from my baobei, closest friends and family, I can do it! GAMBATTE!

angry to the max

2011-06-19T01:33:00.000+08:00

Konni Minna!

Phew! Just finished editing my blog layouts. Sigh, im getting bored of my layout and so i change it like once a week or once in a month.

AH! there's one more thing that I hated the most!
UGH, it keeps annoying me and hitting my nerve on! Any ideas what am i talking about? UGH, of course about the government of Malaysia! I HATE YOU PEOPLE! I HATE YOU ALL FOR BLOCKING FILE SHARING! ESPECIALLY MEGAUPLOAD! Do you know how important is that for me? It's my no.1 source for finding music albums and softwares also a player as well. CRAP YOU ALL! What's the point having 5GB of speed but blocking the file sharing?! SCREW you people!! UGH!!! YOU ALL BETTER REMOVE ALL YOUR PROMOTIONS FOR BUYING ANY BROADBANDS OR WHATEVER. DAMN YOU !! D:

INSTEAD BLOCKING FILES SHARING, WHY DONT YOU PEOPLE BLOCK THE P0RN SITE..?!?!?!?!?! LIKE "HEY PEOPLE, I COULS STILL VISIT THE P0RN SITE, COOL YO!" =_= BUT NOW I WON'T COMPLAIN IT AGAIN BECAUSE I HAVE WAY HOW TO REBLOCK IT.. BLUEEEEEEEEEKKKK!!!!

gambare!

2011-06-17T19:07:00.000+08:00

Konni Minna!! ;D

Sigh, this week would be the most saddest week ever because we lost our most talented friend, Amen. GAH! Really hectic ne? :\ I don't know what or how should I start to write my post today. Haha, anyways hours by hours, days by days, week by week ... keep counting the days till the real pressure turns on. Um okay, for this semester I only take 3 subjects and that is 2D Animation, 3D Animation and Corporate Design but unfortunately Corporate Design has been hold for a while for unknown reason. Heh! Lucky ne.. :)

Yosha! Gonna work my butt off this semester and so on...oh and for the next and last semester i would like to hangout with my friends and my bestie. Just a simple hangout...teehee also i too don't want to be disturbed ... 100% focus! HM! GAMBARE EVA! >0<

Aku tak punyai apa-apa...

2011-06-16T16:59:00.000+08:00

Jika sa x bersungguh-sungguh, ada yang x suka;

Jika sa bersungguh-sungguh, ada yg ingin berputus asa;

adakah itu namanya bodoh?

Kan bagusnya sa langsung x mempunyai apa-apa daripada melihat orang yang ingin berputus asa,

ada bagusnya lenyap daripada dunia ini daripada mengharungi perkara sebegini.

Aku terlampau jajal sehingga orang lain x menyukainya,

Aku terlampau lurus, terus mempercayai kata-kata orang...

Orang lain memanggil aku:

Bodoh, Jajal, Lurus dan lembab,

persis dengan personaliti aku ya?

God Bless you.

2011-06-16T12:42:00.000+08:00

It's been 21 hours he left from this world. I'm still can't accepting the facts that he passed away. Every semester that we're together, every laughter and jokes that he always make especially in studio or in class or during presentation. He's a great, hardworking and coolest guy that I met in college also he's very friendly towards everyone. We, really gonna missed him, missed his jokes and his laughter, his artwork...everything! He's a one truly legend artist. I feel bad for him because he's in last semester but at least let him get his diploma... :( but luck isn't on his side.

A friend, we cared.

2011-06-16T00:32:00.001+08:00

Rest In Peace

Wagerion @ Rion

(1990 - 15 June 2011)

This absolutely a shocking news for me because my dear and most respected friend has just passed away.

Although we're not that close, you have been already an awesome brother and a friend for me. We all always remembered you and yes, you'll be alright now, Rion because you now is sitting next beside with HIM.

We always called each other 'sifu' and play jokes around. I definitely gonna missed you. :(

God bless you

AMEN.

A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be. ~Douglas Pagels

pressure!!

2011-06-06T00:57:00.000+08:00

Hey all !

I'm in the middle of my semester break, 3 weeks huh? It's...BORING! I should be blasting off with my darlings last week but unfortunately one of my darlings kept canceling the hangouts activities. Sigh, I currently couch potato by playing games whole day 24/7 with aaron. I would say I had a fun but playing games repeatedly is boring anyway. I need fresh air, the foods and...and most of all taking photos of myself. I kinda missed taking photos of me, good old days. I think i am going to take new photographs of me because I'm going to make my own magazine. UGH! My hands are aching for doing it, haha!

Anyways, soon i'm going to my 7th Semester in college! EEK! The pressure is on, you know. i'm getting tense every time i ended each of my semesters in college and after 3 months, there i'll be starting my major project on last 8th semester. GOD! I don't know what to present and what kind of projects I wanna do. I lost words... please please help!! :| I would just say amen... ugh, hopefully my nerves didn't ruin during the presentations.

the up, the down and the up again :))

2011-06-04T16:32:00.001+08:00

Hi world! :|
Yesterday I'm a bit down because few of my friends was mad at me for not talking to them and...they were pissed. I was like... how should I know that you were chatting to me, I'm watching the tv and my brother suddenly without asking went turn on my laptop.. hey, i'm sorry... i did explain to you guys and there's no replies that I get.. :| Why this always happen to me... :(((
While I was emo'ing, my bestie esther was cheering me up.. there, i'm all out...crying like shit then saying i wanna go die and more stuff like that... haha...crazeyyhh meh... So, esther was angry at me for saying like that then she's tried her best to cheer me up and yeah it works.. i love you my dearest bulan-bulan..

i don't want any one of you

2011-06-03T20:16:00.001+08:00

I'm just a doll

I'm just a normal human being, that's all. I do whats the best and you people were taking advantage on me because I'm easy to picked with? You people never understands how I felt! Do you know how long did I took to think over and over again so that I could find the perfect answer and how do you people felt? I interpreted your reaction and feelings to mine, all I have to do is to understand the circumstances if I speak all of my heart out... but have you people did that, for me? I guess not... Yeah, who am I actually? It's okay, it doesn't matter at all. You people wants something to me but never really care about me at all, you people just want that but in reality, you people just using me and after that throw me away. WHAT AM I? A RUBBISH? I'M A FREAKING HUMAN, DAMMIT! Yes, this is how I felt and if this explanation makes you people mad, WHO CARES! You people doesn't care anyway... tch!

Someone just wanted their wishes to be fulfilled but when that someone felt that he/her cannot be fulfilled there goes the "ignore" appeared. Heh, stupid much? I don't know if I could handle this anymore. THIS MATTER GAVES ME HEADACHE... UGH!

the selfsame wretchedness

2011-05-29T04:27:00.000+08:00

The confession I tried to speak out to you, I guess it will unreachable because you know, I tried to keep this sentiment away so that I won't drown together with it. As once you've stepped your feet on this land, I get even neurotic. I tried to get my head on the game but this desire cannot be gone as I wished for. Therefore, its literal that I really do ache for you. Its true I really want that so that I could be close to you despite the crazy laws. I was wondering why do I keep thinking that I always been oppressed by it and I wanna to do everything that you said just I could mark you as mine and only. Our liaison is like a traffic jams where we stop and continue after that, what should I do to make it clean and smooth? My mind is not fully-grown enough to understand this whole thing but I tried my best to understand you and to understand myself as well.

loathe

2011-05-26T01:45:00.000+08:00

You may do anything that you wanted,

but you must have the limit and privacy,

What kind of hybrid that doesn't care about limit and privacy?

Understand english, no?

Answering why to a question that really matters to a someone was quite dumb, isn't it?

This is all about the welfare of a someone?

Answering why will makes you dumber than a person who already dumb at first place!

Stupidity is no an excuses,

we're not perfect, are we?

YOU MIGHT SCARED HELLA SHIT OF 'ER IF YOU KEEP DOING IT..

YOU DISGRACE OF ALL HYBRID SPECIES...

SUCKS!

boring boring boring!

2011-05-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

It's been 3 days since my semester break started. I feel so lazy and no mood somehow. I've being a couch potato in home, there's nothing much that i could do. During these holidays, my plans are training my vocal, losing few pounds and practicing on my drawings.. Mehh....

last couple days, i'm busy with my own recording session and it sucks! D: I wanna sing for my bestie but i failed. =_=

my mood not good...

2011-05-22T21:44:00.001+08:00

Oh yeah,
i heard from my bestie that someone has just called my friends and I 'names'. Wow, yeah i feel insulted because you have insulted my best friend. Just because she's big, she doesn't deserved to be called like that. That's insulting! Geez..what kind of person are you?! You think i don't know what're you doing behind your back? Acting innocent but you're not innocent at all. YOU ARE FUCKING CREEPY....

YEAH WE KNOW THAT WE LIKE NERDS AND WE'RE FAT!! AND SUCKS TO BE YOU....FUCK YOU MAN.... I DESPISE PEOPLE LIKE YOU!!!! D: GO AWAY FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR FROM MY BESTIE...YOU DON'T DESERVE TO GET 'ER... =_=

dire gossips.

2011-05-22T20:10:00.001+08:00

I've just reached home couple hours ago, phew what a tiring day today. I hangout with my besties right after done my last paper exams. Sigh... i can't say more about the last paper today. I absolutely know nothing for todays paper! It's Typography and I have no idea or clue that chapter 5 and 6 will be coming out the most and i was like...what the fuck?! Great! I hadn't do any revisions and i only had my last revisions an hour before the exam starts. Geez! I definitely gonna fail on this subject. I just hope I don't though... amen!

So after the exam ends, I went to the studio and after that i straight away call Esther. While i was calling her, i saw my magazine (last semester projects) was like..abandoned under the table. I was like...OH SHIT! Guess what, I lost 3 pages from my magazines and the rings to lock all of my magazine page. CRAP, i said. They've taken the rings and leave my magazine just like that? I mean really? REALLY?! That costed me RM60+ for everything; and they're just simply took and remove it. FUCK man! You know what, I don't care anymore... things that belongs to me i shall get it back ITS MINE!!! Apa ni, ampai-ampai gitu ja... britau la bah if can take back the magazine or not... ini bukan... hak milik kolej ka? if hak milik kolej, jagalah bagus-bagus...student punya hasil kerja bah... aish, i'm disappointed lah... Ugh...whatever la.. =_=

Enough with that magazines...
So, me and my bestie watched Fast and Furious 5... oh my god! I rate 15 out of 10... Holy crap! I love the part when Dom and Brian droved away the mini bank... effing awesome you know!! :O The movie ended around 4.30pm... haha cool yaw... :D, then on the way back to college, we went to YoYo Cafe then i got to see Selina outside the CP... aww, i missed her so much!! :O She's gotten so pretty lah...wahh... 8D and tall like always... heh...

So that's my post for today... teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... :B

oh god for heaven sake...the world has turn upside down

2011-05-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

Heh! hey people...!

Geez, looks like i lack motivated to blog...that's sucks... i wonder what should i write for today...
oh yea!! omg!! hahahaha... god my bestie just told me a very interesting story... i would say it's " hot yuckiest gossip ever"...

you know,
yesterday i heard from my junior that he willing to do anything for a girl... hmm, its so confuse to understand male.. =_= you see, you'd willingly to do anything for a girl but what if the girl doesn't do the same thing as you do? that worthless...seriously.. but unless the girl would open her eyes and seeing you how hard you had sacrificed just for her.. aww...

ah! nevermind about the story.. haha all i knew is its very very funny! :D

gloomy

2011-05-20T12:48:00.000+08:00

sigh, i feel so depressed. =_=

fun but awkward.

2011-05-19T19:34:00.000+08:00

Wow, there's a lot happens today which makes me happy and awkward. Guess what, today my friend asked me to give a present for my bestie, jodit. The present is huge and dusty, it makes me cough all day... pfft! i ABSOLUTELY can't bring that present to home... SERIOUSLY!! it's embarrassing to bring to college back on sunday.. people would asked why the hell you bring the teddy bear to exams? who did that anyway...yaii...weird. so, i called my bestie to take the present. hahaha... i can't hold that teddy bear that long... geez! look, i bring the teddy bear around the centre point and everyone are looking at me....lol! but at least thats a shopping mall..who cares... but carrying at the college was very embarrassing...the whole college was wondering why did i carrying the teddy bear to college? =_= lol.... bikin malu ja...dui... if its smal, i don't mind..but this is huge!! :O

at the end, jodit came and i gave it to her... problem solve! :d hahahaa... :D

p/s: if any of you need my help by delivering to someone.. i'm not the perfect person to deliver something especially huge stuff... can't you understand my condition.. i have physical problems and do you expect a handicap person like me to carry huge stuff? =_= god, what if i fell or something then i hurt my old injuries which is my knee...

JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND.

2011-05-18T03:42:00.001+08:00

Wow, i can't believe to what i've just heard today! God! I hope it's just a dream unfortunately it isn't.
I wonder why girls have to be the focus? ugh...what an upside down world! Geez... trying to be forlorn infront us...why would we care? if they really doted on us, this isn't the way.
didn't any of your parents how to civility us as a women?

ANYWAYS, JUST HOPING THEY COULD CHANGE, FOR THE SAKE FOR US? AMEN.

Azmaria no Uta

2011-05-17T18:47:00.001+08:00

Look!

He comes with clouds descending,
Once for favored sinners slain;
Thousand thousand saints attending,
Swell the triumph of His train:
Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
God appears on earth to reign! God appears on earth to reign!

The dear tokens of His passion
Still His dazzling body bears;
Cause of endless exultation
To His contrased worshippers;
With what rapture, with what rapture, with what rapture
Gaze we on those glorious scars! Gaze we on those glorious scars!

bless me.

2011-05-15T02:11:00.001+08:00

hey readers!

Phew! finally had a time to blog 'bout my hectic day. Actually I wanna blog yesterday but blogger is in maintenance and so i have to delayed it for a day.
So, last couple days ago i've been struggling completing my assignments before my final exam starts. Friday was my most sleepiest and tiredest day ever! I didn't managed to sleep well because of my web design assignments. Sigh... i have to draw for the icons and yeah i know i need to take time to draw... I hate my drawing skills nowadays, i easily lost my mood to draw and that makes my drawing skills become worst especially in coloring. =_=

Final Exam starts on this monday!! D: and its Web Design paper... how eff is that?! D: god, i have to rush to complete the icons and start doing my revisions... amen amen.

tired tired tiiirrreeddd!!!

2011-05-10T19:09:00.000+08:00

Hey readers!
How's your day today?

My whole body is all sore, my gosh. Yesterday was very tiring day, really tiring. We all walked to Karamunsing just to print our final project at Orange Channel Printing. All my muscles at my thighs, my torso and my legs are killing me. UGH... Thank god we have no class today, and i really need that hols to regain back my energy but one day holiday won't helping that much because i need more than that... sigh...

So, as for my assignments... i think we really really running out of TIME! D: i'm only worried 'bout the website stuff.
If i failed, i don't know what else should i do..

amen.

The Crude Masquerade

2011-05-08T02:14:00.001+08:00

"Look! Everyone's waiting... hurry up!"
My my, what an impatient girl,
"What is the matter with you, mister?"
Oh my apologies, my lady.
"Hmph, who are you?"
That wasn't the way to greet a gentlemen like me.
"Well excuse me, mr-so-act-to-be-gentlemen"
Well, since you just a child, let me show you the proper greeting to a gentlemen like me.

-- x x x --

"You! What do you think you're doing!?"
Hm? I'm just showing you the "proper" way to greet people

the pure me / the evil me?

2011-05-07T18:44:00.000+08:00

welcome love.

Which side do thou pick?

The mysterious saintly doll or The creepy sinister doll?

shock.

2011-05-04T21:03:00.001+08:00

I was looking forward for today because i'm going out with 2 of my best friends, jodie and esther unfortunately esther broke her promises. She said herself that she will come today and even vowed that she definitely will come but when i tried to call her, she didn't even picked up her cell phone. She didn't informed what's her reason for not coming. Jodie was pissed so do I. I asked jodie to called her as well but ended with a same result. Sigh...

Although there's no esther around we're still managed to have fun. I think this would be my last day to enjoy before i focused on my assignments 100%. Besides, next month jodie will leave us behind and off to her practical at Sarawak. :( Sigh... gonna miss her.

Oh, by the way... jodie told me a very very interesting story. Too bad I can't write the name here because she told me to zip my mouth. I jaw-dropping when she told me whole story, I just can't believe someone could be so desperate. We're at KFC having lunch and during the half-day at KFC, i laughed and shocked at the same time. My god... jodie swore to god that she's telling the truth. I mean .. seriously?! Shit! I never knew that he's that kind of person... My jesus christ... that person reminds of me when we're both 14 and chatted a guy called "Kaya Keras kecil kayu"... hahaha.. actually we're direct translated from his name. Hahaha... his name was "Richard Smallwood". hahaha...
All this years that i knew, i thought he was a goodie goodie type of person but unfortunately... :| Wow... my reaction all goes to this:

to this:

thumb pain...thumb pain... :I

2011-05-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

I wished i wanna to spin like this...forever...endless...

~~*vomit*~~

due to too much spinning around.

Done changing my layout... !!!

i think this code for this layout is quite complicated compared to previous one.

My thumb is hurting me right now due to copy-pasting here and there... grr...

but i'm happy that i'm done! bueehhehhehhehe....

too tired.

2011-05-02T00:36:00.000+08:00

Ugh, today i almost spent sitting infront of the computer 24hr. I'm doing all my assignments in one time. That's crazy and that makes me baffled between which assignment should I do first. Sigh...
I'm too tired to think mostly the web site thingy. I done connecting the host BUT i can't view my web site page. It says the website that you trying to find is not existed. What?! I done creating the domain, the web hosts and now what? what's next?! Thats what i'm trying to figure it out. Ugh... i'm really tired right now.
Having my first day menstrual phase. GAH... you know what, i guess i'm going to do the easy part first but to me packaging design is the easiest but sadly i need a proceed confirmation from the lecturer. SIGH...better i do my 3D Typography.

Amen.

Would you or would you not?

2011-05-01T01:37:00.001+08:00

Would you become as my pawn again?

thrills of musicals.

2011-05-01T01:24:00.000+08:00

I don't conduct oneself to amuse people,

I don't take anyone's mandate,

I don't lodge in to be intimidated

I lodge in to be deference,

I took only certain mandate's from the highest ones,

I conduct oneself to enjoy the amusement

Were it not for them,

I have started my dishonored incitement before now/then,

Quite credulous, isn't it?

I'm just a mere servant of yours,

I have no position to overpower your aptness..

I have suspicions about ye' a little while back,

I puzzled on behalf of your manners,

What a weird metamorphose...

busy.hectic.

2011-04-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

[29 April 2011 - Prince William and Catherine Middleton Wedding]

Aww...

finally the Duke and Duchess finally married! <3

How sweet...

Kate's dress utterly...uh-mazing! Oh god, i thought their wedding would be like the

ala - victorian old style but yeah this is so pretty!!

Prince William, you so handsome.. those outfit looks fine! Not just plain fine, but its awesome fine! <3

hee...

eva, why the hell you have time for blog instead doing assignment?

you disappointed me

you no believe me?
look this:

stupid.

2011-04-29T23:16:00.000+08:00

I don't know if i could handle all this burden anymore.. assignments just increasing ...
sigh... from who i wanna to asked for help?

la la la la la

2011-04-28T09:30:00.000+08:00

Hows your day yesterday? ;3

Mine was...um, fun! :B 'cause i'm with my bestfriend and my bestfriend's bestfriend, Tini. haha.. Since effa didn't come yesterday, i'm with sebastian after that sebastian off to his workplace and then i'm going with izzati, my darl and Tini. Yeah, we're at the library for couple of hours then moved to Room 27, which is 3D class... Hurhur...
I'm meddle up all my works. I do my typography, also at the same time i'm doing the Web design code. Wosh... 2 major works at the same time.

Btw, my typography character become purple, aww its so cute. Poring i love you... :B hehehehee... but my poring has a little bit twist of green slime from maple story... aww... :B

attitude

2011-04-26T22:51:00.001+08:00

If you don't get everything you want, think of the things you don't get that you don't want. ~Oscar Wilde

fret.

2011-04-26T01:18:00.001+08:00

Today i received a news from my best friend, esther saying that selina and her sister, lisa are went missing. They run away from home. Why? They having a hard times with their mum because her mum kept nagging her all the time and beating her without reason. Her mum totally not giving selina a space whereas she needs so badly. My other best friend, jodie received a text from her saying that if we could drop by at her workplace. We didn't go because it's gonna be rain, in fact its far too..

~~We terribly sorry, sal. We didn't know that you need us to be there so badly..~~ :( Forgive us?

"Dear my dearest sal, i wished you returned home a.s.a.p because i felt sorry for your dad, you know. Your dad is so worried about you until met with man-man's dad. You don't want anything happens to them, do you? Please come back. Everyone was so worried about you and your sister! Plus, your sister need to go to school! Think of her future :(? I hope you doing fine out there. God bless you, my bestie."

twisted post?

2011-04-25T01:20:00.000+08:00

I'm doing a research for my client's products. Ugh, i never thought it would be so detailed (actually i make it so detailed) *giggle*.
First I had to find the target market preference, well that is important. Well we, humans have divergent personalities and interest yeah? So, i have to be like so detailed while searching it.
Okay, here's the tough one... creating logo is like i'm doing a digital painting. It took me 6-9 hours for 2 logos. CRAP! I'm sucks in creating stuffs. NO ORIGINALITIES. Boo me...
Then of course i need sketches! :B

I think thats all... boring post yeah.. :|

bermused.

2011-04-24T16:37:00.000+08:00

*Wee...i'm rolling~~"

lol.

Who am i kidding to? tch.
Anyways hi!

It's sunday! Not just ordinary sunday, it's day!! So Happy Easter Everyone. Well you see, actually i'm in the middle of doing my assignments but i've been distracted by...arts right now. Deviantart is a heaven for me, its an eye candy for me.

See... i told ya...

oh besides that, i have (a)nother to show ya...

Yeah..so?

No..look at the tab..

...hahaha, okay probably that wasn't very amusing, was it?..

(cricket sound)

So...

yeaaaaa that's alll..... :B

Its Good Friday but not Rebecca Black

2011-04-22T16:09:00.000+08:00

It's

Good Friday

LOCKING MYSELF

2011-04-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

I've been despised by everyone,
despised because i'm speak out entirely on how i feel,
Since everyone despised me,
nobody understands how I feel.
Everyone pissed off because I'm pissed.

I look so dangerous for everyone,
In that case,
I shall be gone from the public eye.

"RIO"

2011-04-21T15:20:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, i hangout with my bestie and my bestie's cousin. In fact, we had a blast! Though we had fun, my bestie and I felt uneasy about my bestie's cousin actually spent us watching movies in 3D. It's expensive, Rm13 per person. So, 5 people including my bestie's cousin times 13 equals 65. He paid the total of the movies RM65.00. OMG?! O_O Yes, it was my idea to watch "RIO" but not in 3D.

Well, RIO in 3D is utterly awesome to the max. This was my first time to watch in 3D movies. THANKS to Dale, my bestie's cousin. If we have time again, I'm sure going to spent you. In my pocket, I had RM40 and I've planned to spent my bestie, Jodit because last week she spent me. Spent her starbucks.. i could spent everyone but i oni managed to spent jodit and zati. Sigh... My money not enough... :( Then, when I'm reached home i remembered about "Yo Yo drinks" .. By Yo yo, i could spent everyone! TCH...hahah i'm stupid. GOSH... But anyways, there's always be a next time yeah? :))

THANK YOU THANK YOU!!

and that's it.

p/s: i can't believe there's my name in RIO movies.. hahahaa... it's funny... you all should watch it! :O

yes, a test.

2011-04-20T00:14:00.000+08:00

i.will.never.~~ever~~.make.my.blog.undisclosed.

if someone found it's intolerable,

off your step out of here.

if you so intrigued by it,

so you may stay.

I would like to make it undisclosed but, we're humans and we're not simply get off like that.

Humans called it "Curiosity".

The more i conceal it, the more curiosity were appeared.

True, no?

'Nuff said.

Like the title said,

"Yes, a test"

A test where it testing your mind & heart,

by just giving 2 choices;

Read it? or Leave it?

title-less

2011-04-19T23:28:00.001+08:00

Any fool can criticize, condemn, and complain but it takes character and self control to be understanding and forgiving.

-Dale Carnegie

forgo...

2011-04-19T21:44:00.000+08:00

＼（－－）／マイッタ

ugh...ngghh!! >.>

2011-04-18T18:25:00.000+08:00

Ugh, i hate monday (not all).. i hate monday because i had this terribly gastric. It ended around 4pm, something like that. CRAP! I feel wanna faint, vomit, poop... After i had my lunch, there it become worst.. almost the whole day i didn't talk or anything..

its bored me. tch, entertain me now..!

Besides that, i've gotten back my tabby! :B aww, i miss you so much.. away from me for 3 days feel like i'm going crazy. Not only that, i have unfinished projects too.. sigh. But oh well, that's my wishes starting early this year...so, no complaining now. i had enough...

that's for today then...
:))))))

a poem for the little young master

2011-04-18T00:34:00.003+08:00

A kiss for your that is sorrowful,
A goodbye for you that is loved.

- Kuroshitsuji (Chapter 13)

"Give me.." ; "The art of dying" ; Vulnerable

2011-04-18T00:04:00.001+08:00

images by active-style.deviantart.com

pass into oblivion

2011-04-17T23:50:00.001+08:00

To whom I shall convicted to?

To whom I shall prattle to?

Who is going to confide in?

Who is going to divvy up their - with me?

I ain't nobody,

I'm just a mysterious mad-lass,

Nary a soul who wants to prattle with me,

Nary a soul who fathom my sentiment,

Yes indeed,

I done an unpleasant thing,

I considered that they would understand mine,

Alas,

they didn't or perhaps they did,

For the nonce,

I shall move distant,

let I take your lament away,

and blended with mine,

as I vanish slowly . . .

As I slowly vanished,
please . . .
"Remember the yesteryear"

im bored & you named it all.

2011-04-17T17:15:00.001+08:00

I'm being couch potato the past 24hr. I should helping my friend assignment by now BUT due to my lazyness and my boredomness, i don't feel doing anything right now. 

Feeling uneasy,  sick and wanna vomits...sigh. 
Besides that, my mackie's cover is in dying state...some of my locks are broke and only 5 locks left that managed to hold still... T_T 

installing stuffs

2011-04-17T13:47:00.001+08:00

i've just download few stuffs for my apple dashboard... 
although i less using dashboard but for emergency or quick post, i use dashboard instead going to actual site

who, who?

2011-04-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

who shall infer my sentiment?
who have the audacity to try to infer?
you no compare to HIM...

HIM,
created i and..
i only could be gauged by HIM,
nor you or other.

sentiment

2011-04-17T00:19:00.001+08:00

To what reason a person dismay a person self-esteem?

To what reason a person disliked a person honesty?

Instead to lie, it is better to expose the honesty on how they were feeling, correct?

In what reason that would satisfy you?

viability

2011-04-13T18:51:00.002+08:00

today is the 5th time of presentation for visual communication. we was the last group to present and it's very bad, although everyone were present, but we couldn't properly finish our presentation and it was suck! D: everyone in class were in the "Lunch time mood", so everyone less interested to what are we presenting. Sigh, besides my part presentation was very bad... i mean VERY VERY BAD.. we're just could present personal, history and ethics. there's 3 more left we couldn't continue because everyone somehow lost their mood... @_@
so yeah... :| i feel like...wasting time.. >.> but i cannot blame them either...i should blame myself due to my horrible presentation. I should just raised up my white flag then.... sigh.... T_T

afterthat, i hangout with my bestie, jodit to centre point... :)) Dale was there as well and willingly to spent us to watch movies together with his friends.. hehe...we watched "Scream of the death"... everyone in the cinema was like screaming like crazy and dale said that i'm weird. It's a horror film and i was laughing, he told me that i supposed to be afraid, not laughing.. hahahahha!! i was laughing because the people inside the cinema was screaming..hahaa! including jodit was screaming too..hahahah XDD

p/s: the ghost face is horrible and i could traumatized to death.. x_x and thanks to the sound effect made it so scary.. -_-;

then jodit spent me starbucks and also paid for my lunch meal. hahaha :| i told her to spent me starbuck drinks only but she said its alright.. so yeah... aww i love u daling.. also don't forget dale for spending us watch movie!!! <3 weee~~ during the lunch, i was laughing till my mouth cramp... my gosh, the conversation between dale and jodit was so hillarious.... :B

at the end, me n jodit ended hugging each other to say good bye.. aww..i miss u daling.. :( lets go out agn okeh... :))) oh btw, she also was hugging his "1st-met-boyfriend" too.. :B wkakaka... o.O

doltishness

2011-04-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

hi there.

It's monday already and i haven't go to bed yet, so yeah. I currently downloading an anime ost album.
Okay so, past few days ago i had a terrible headache and 2 days of diarrhea. How crazy it would be?
I hope this week would be a great week! amen. No more conflicts, please.

Yay, i've changed my blog layout. :)
Simple and cool. XD

sick.

2011-04-08T01:12:00.000+08:00

i'm having a diarrhea, vomits and painful headaches right now. Ugh, the reason i had diarrhea is because i was trying to fry the potato wedges that i bought from the supermarket the day before yesterday but i think my potato wedges is not cooked well, i still could feel hard in it and yuck it taste bad, very bad like a frozen potatoes, because its frozen i bought it from the frozen section at the supermarket.
I have no appetite of eating afterthat but i force myself to eat because my brother cooked a proper meal and yes, then i went to eat it. Mum too bought corns too and i ate 2 of it. It's delicious and now i'm craving for Cold Milo...haha.
So, how am i today? it's not okay..i'm still fighting the stress, headaches and all. This whole thing kinda stupid because this whole thing made me like i'm the guilty ones (why in the world that i think like that, idiot) Since i'm the most active in this group, that makes me a leader, correct? Nah, i don't mind being a leader or not being a leader, i don't care but i just want my WHOLE MEMBER there and discuss the freaking assignments. Isn't a group all about, right? If i do it alone, it means i do it as an individuality not as a group. I gave 100% effort in it although i'm doing it at the last minute. If my members had a problems, they should AT LEAST FREAKING TELL ME! I'm playing the role of the most active ones?? OMG... if i disappeared out of the sudden, how do you react? Panic? Worried? Of course because they depends ON ME, yeah i'm a MAID of course, what else should i be? A BOSS? tch, not gonna happen.
Maybe i should gone for a week , then they'll understand how i feel.

too much burden..

2011-04-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

Yesterday it was my 4th presentation for Visual communication subjects. I'm staying up the whole night to do it, since its almost morning and i couldn't think more words, so i off to bed and woke up at 5am and off to college at 6am. Once i've arrived, i started to continuing the leftover words. While i'm finding everything resources for my assignments, my head suddenly become so dizzy and so heavy, almost fainted. Plus, i haven't took breakfast yet. Sigh, i was hoping 2 of my members coming but only one who came, but that also pretty late..
so, last minute she helped me to change infos that i wrote (which is wrong)... oTL

Before my time to present, i cried because i'm so stressed out and i wanna let everything out. OMG..and im glad some of my friends is trying to cheered me up even the lecturer itself.. :)) aww, thanks everyone! <3
after the cheering, i held my head high and presented with my other team member, efa. Glad she's there to help..

Then once i'm back home, i went to sleep straight away due to my body temperature is too hot and cold at the same time..yeah, minor fever.

5 MAJOR TASKS!

2011-04-05T03:59:00.000+08:00

Within this 2 months, i'm going to be so so so so so so so so so so... (enough with the so) much busy with my college assignments. Oh yes! it's one hell of heavy duty work here...

One i have to create own a personal using own code (html stuffs yeah), second is i have to create my own logo, name or whatever for my packaging designs, third is i have to make 3D typeface (own designs), fourth i have to analyzing stuffs, to be clear its visual communications.. and that's it! OMG..it's 4 HEAVY TASK!!! DO YOU KNOW HOW TOUGH IS THAT... my brain couldn't hold any files anymore... ITS EXCEEDING!!! MAJOR ERORR... *Sirens sound*
oh wait there's fifth...the fifth is to help my friends in coloring digital for his 2D animation projects (Should i ask him to pay for my job or... hahahaa nah just coloring but yeah its free of charge..since his my friend though..)
Coloring digital ain't easy but yeah i'll try my best!! :O oh brain and oh time, please...be friendly to me.

Dear lazy,
i hate you and stop making me fooling around...

i, cooling down.

2011-04-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

Around 4.30am,
i've been crying over nothing,
i couldn't get over with it but now yeah, i lame.

I shall think positive right now,
now or never,
i will do this website done!

i, gone crazy.

2011-04-01T03:37:00.000+08:00

it's 3.20am, and hey it's april and happy april fool.
(i start on that time, maybe i end like 10mins later? kay, whatever)

i've been thinking negative past few hours ago and i'm blabbering endlessly because i wanna to speak out till my heart content also trying to ease my anger at the same time. yes, i'm talking about my team didn't give their 100% effort this is effing final project which cause i can't think wisely, (where i can't concentrate in doing my work and i do everything in one time, hectic huh?)

while i'm all stressed out like wanna pull out all of my hair, there one of my team member helping out.. thats because i'm spamming all my anger in twitter. -_-;
and now my one of my team member wanna leave the group, and that made me felt guilty. =_= I'm the one who should leave right, riigghhtt? say it! D:

i just have to give up on this project, let them have the marks and i don't... yeah, maybe i should do like that..
GAH!! just... UGH...i don't wanna talk about this anymore...

so yeah..that's for my 1st april post... sucks, yeah i know.

x_x

2011-03-30T21:34:00.000+08:00

oh so my visual communication ended to be awesome-NOT. since all my team mates are not there due to their own personal problems, i ended being alone during presentation. to make it worst, my 4th time for sitting spm ulangan for BM subject i get D again for my BM... D:
!@#$% oh i hate you BM! i rather keep repeating english than BM.. pfft! i sucks, yeah. i hate and don't read all the idioms. i'm taking break from the spm stuff this year because i have more important subject in college.

GRR...i'm not in a good mood right now... tch!

besides that, efa's dad just passed away...i feel sorry for her and i hope she could move on with her head held high. once i got the news directly from her, i feel so...real i mean like i could feel that efa's dad is my dad too.. and i understand how'd her feel, i wonder if its happen towards my family i wonder if i could move on.. god bless efa's dad... amen.

fucked up.

2011-03-29T21:51:00.000+08:00

okay, my day today isn't so that awesome as the previous weeks ago...
today i had creative web design class, so normally in this class i always could catch up to what the lecturer's teaches but no for today. We're in chapter 6 and yes it's super duper confusing, thanks to the computer in the class isn't working... where's the maintenance guy when you're need the most? PFFT!! D:

The code easy to understand but when comes to combining codes, oh crap it just went disaster.. all the previous code that i saved i just re-saved it but in different codes.. i mean like when i combined the codes with other code and then i cliked live preview it just went to my other code file name and i clicked command + s and YES, its overwrite 'em. WTF i said!!! D: UGHHH!! this whole thing makes my brain all scattered away... oh fuck man.. yes fuck! D:

also, GAHHHH!!! I have presentation tomorrow and i have to do it alone... thanks nii-san for not being there... =_= i hope you enjoy your day at home... also not forget about packaging design.... shit! there's no more fun time for me and no more artwork to be produced.

menu menu

2011-03-28T17:49:00.000+08:00

my new diet list:

Morning: Sandwiches (4 slices) / double each + Green tea/Lemon tea/Milk or anything drinks that you like.
Contents: Sandwich meat (exclusive for sandwich only), salad/cucumber

Lunch: Waffle with chocolate spread / fruits (any)

Night: Drink yogurt only! :)

hahahaha... that's my new diet. hehe... i do this because i wanna make my zit gone away faster... sigh.. i lack eating fruits.. lols..
so yeah, have fun! :)